Cognac
I feel exactly the same – Now that my mind has woke up I find the meetings really hard. I have now got to the stage of slightly shaking my head during the meeting at some of the stuff said.
Last night was no exception – e.g.
Brother giving talk said this –
“Brothers, Armageddon is so near that the ministry is incredibly urgent. We are in the last gasp of this system. Now is the time to throw off every unnecessary burden and pursue the ministry. These are the last days of the last days.”
Well I was sitting in my seat mumbling to myself and shaking my head – They have said this since the late 1800s – I said to my wife.
(I will need to be careful – I could become a dividing influence in the cong by shaking my head a little bit.)
Another test is the book study (Revelation Climax book) This whole book just creates in me question after question. In fact, I cant get passed one of the first points made in this book – By inspiration I came to be in the lords day – org tell us this is “clearly” 1914. What I had not really noticed before is that this “one” point sets the foundation for the entire book. If the org ever change this date in there understanding they would need to rewrite the whole book.
Anyway, the way I have illustrated it is - Our life is like walking on a tight rope with the Truth being the safety net. Suddenly the safety net is being removed but we need to keep going on the tight rope – life goes on without the org. This initially can create feelings of fear, even danger. But the bottom line is as long as we “think” the truth is the safety net we will not think rationally and will miss oh so much.
I also find it difficult to keep quiet. I sometimes feel like standing up in the middle of the kingdom hall and screaming at the top of my voice - ARE YOU PEOPLE BLIND.
I think I would get in trouble for doing that!!!